I'm remembering today the most important aspect of this blog.... the title.
What, you ask, is so important about the title?
Well, let me explain.
When I first came up with the title, I thought I was being clever and cute but as time has passed I have realized something that many people haven't: what makes me happy.
And it's true, nothing makes me more happy than eating a fresh mango, particularly when it's paired with a puppy, young or old. It makes me smile and realize the most important parts in life are the simple things.
March was a very difficult month for me... if you couldn't tell by the lack of interest in posting or writing or pretty much anything. I lost a dog, gained a dog, new dog got REALLY sick, their were negative issues at work, negative issues with money and loads of stress to go with it all. I lived in a bubble of myself and didn't really read or write and was pretty much angry at the fact that my LUCKY month had turned so unlucky. The problem was, I didn't really do anything about it. I didn't try to change it or anything... I just wallowed in it.
Yesterday I took a step back. I hung out with a good friend, watched a good movie and drank good wine and now I realized AGAIN what was important to me: the little things.
I also realized something else... I wasn't the only one who had a horrible month. All I had to do was look at the WORLD around me and realize that March was pretty bad for everyone worldwide... and not just worldwide, but in my community as well. I wasn't the only one dealing with a horrible March.
Now the more serious question... did I aid in this negativity?
I know I didn't cause earthquakes and such... I'm not a god. But what about work? People were feeling bad and I didn't help. My negativity on myself probably did not add to the already negative air. In fact, it probably made the air worse.
Toxic even.
It brought it all back to me in full force.
So, I'm waking up today on my day off and starting new for April. I'm remembering my goals. I did not read a book in March. I went on an adventure but I hardly appreciated it. I hung out with friends but I wasn't there. I wallowed in my sadness in losing Jack (he went back to the breeder) but forgot to realize that this is what was best for him and his success. I didn't write. I didn't communicate. I can't take it back, but I could let it flow down the river and remember what I want to do.
For April, I'm started it positive by WAKING UP and remembering the small things that make me happy. I'm going to finish a book I barely started, I'm going to do Scriptfrenzy, I'm going to write and post pictures, I'm going to a concert whether I have money or not and I'm going to enjoy my friends. April will be positive because I am remembering that, yea, life sometimes sucks but that's why the little matter most.
And I'm going to play with my new HEALTHY puppy :) She made it through parvo and came back to me, just like her name, Kyli, implies. Why shouldn't I be happy about the little miracles like that??
Peace out, y'all and hope to write again soon.
