A note about the sky...

The sky is endless and I absolutely love to look at it.

I wish I could be that kid again that had both the time and the carefree ability to stare at the sky; to lie down on the grass and just stare.

Nowadays, my thoughts are full of things about LIFE: job, bills, searching for a career, money, needs, and then, just LIFE. Nothing like it used to be when I was a kid and dreaming of all my stories and what I wanted to be when I grew up and other things of that caliber.

The sky in the morning is my favorite picture. Everything is waking up and the hills over by Milpitas are filled with a misty color. I remember I was sitting in the yard at work the other day and staring at those mountain. It made me truly enjoy going to work at 6:30 am for once, which is slightly rare and hard to do.

The sky, though, makes me feel small for sure. Very small in the giant scheme of things.

Maybe that's why I was able to stare at the sky so long as a little kid. I wasn't afraid then, because my world was still so full of possibilities. I wasn't afraid to look at all my worries and work and realize that they would mean nothing when compared to the sky; that, in reality, what I did, what I struggled with, what I aimed for, was so small in comparison to rest of the universe. That it ultimately meant nothing.

Interesting to think about it. Sad, but an oddly nice perspective.

:)

Dreams... dreams... dreams...

I love Netflix. They enable to watch a multiple amount of things that I enjoy... particularly when it comes to watching documentaries. What can I say, I'm an inner geek! I just love learning things, which is a great thing and I wouldn't want it any other way.

The show that I was watching last night asked the question WHAT ARE DREAMS and WHAT IS HAPPENING IN OUR BRAIN when we are dreaming.

Intense, right?

So, I already knew about the stages of sleep that lead up to REM and then how you go through this cycle a couple of times through the night until... well... you actually wake up! But the things I REALLY didn't know were that we dream different in REM sleep and out of REM sleep. In REM sleep is usually when we have are darker dreams and our nightmares while out of REM sleep usually is something positive or something that happened during the day.

Yea, intense right?

Not to mention the crazy idea that mother nature helps us by paralyzing us during REM sleep. There are people out there with a particular disease that makes it so that they DON'T become paralyzed during REM sleep and they usually find themselves walking around and acting out their dreams. I don't know if that's a form of sleepwalking or not... it was never mentioned.

Afterwards, I found that it was hard to sleep last night. I kept waking up and wondering what part of the sleep cycle I was in. Was I just in REM? I kept wondering.

And it also made me think about recent dreams I was having and what they meant. The show had all sorts of scientists trying to explain is dreams actually were interpretations of something or if we should be learning from our dreams or whatever. A variety of stuff, but the one scientist that disturbed me was the ones that either did brain surgery on dogs and cats so that they don't remain paralyzed during REM sleep or the ones that surgically attached cones to little rat's heads.

Science, I understand, may be necessary for learning... but attaching a cone to a little rat's head???? REALLY?

One recent dream that was in my head was one I recently had where I was a member of a science exploration team. We went out and were looking for samples of a rare caterpillar. Funny enough, actor Cillian Murphy joined us. Not QUITE sure what that had to do with anything but whatever... we ended up finding a lot of caterpillars and studying them, finding out that they are cures to fending off evil demons that (and I'm sure this is when I hit REM sleep) were chasing us at some points. Weird, huh? Even weirder was the meaning of dreaming of a caterpillar:

To see a caterpillar in your dream,
signifies a stage in your own personal
growth and development where you are
on your way, but have not yet reached
your goal.

Cool.

Which is true since I'm really trying to grow in my personal life and look at life in new ways. I figure it's about time.