Hellooooo November

November is starting... that's amazing. If you would have told me a week ago that November was almost here, I would have said something like: "But it's not even Halloween yet!"

Funny, huh, how time really does fly by without you even realizing it? I'm not saying I feel old... and I'm not saying that there aren't times when time seems to be moving so slowly that I want to poke my eyes out. It happens all the time. It's the moments when you look at your calendar and realize that those boring moments were just moments within the week... that's when you realize... "Holy Cripes! The time HAS flown by so very quickly"

And, although I have turned another year older in the past month, I don't really feel much older. I still live my life every day as I always have... wishing for something, or someone, to come and make my life change, going to work, sleeping...

That's when it hit me... I'm ALWAYS waiting for SOMETHING or SOMEONE to make my life happen. Isn't that the weirdest thing to realize? That you really are just living your life day to day in hopes that fate will come in and do its duty when, in reality, you are the one who creates your fate. I'm wondering why it took me this long to realize this. I constantly tell myself that I'm doing something, making things happen... but when I sit down and think about it, everything I do has a tendency to depend on someone else. NOW, this is true for anything... there is always a small part of the action that you do that depends on the actions of someone else, but, I'm talking about seriously acting in the way that makes the other person ALMOST entirely responsible.

I'm not TOTALLY like this... I work hard and put my name out there as much as anyone can... but I find that there is still that part of me that believes that I am a diamond in the rough just waiting to be found...

Ridiculous, huh?

I mean, it's a nice thought, but who, other than Aladdin, is this?

So... I've realized that, like everyone else, I have to remember that I can't just work half-way... in a world like today, you REALLY have to sell yourself, put yourself out there... I'm not just talking about jobs either, I'm talking about everything.

This should be interesting.

On another note, I have a new obsession. Full-Metal Alchemist is on Netflix instant watch... oh my god, I have no life right now. :)

Heehee!!!

Meanwhile, check out Jack and I for Halloween!!! I was a kitty this year, but when I found out that Jack could be a submarine, I was thinking a Beatles theme for next year... who's with me????