When you want a puppy....

I'm pretty sure I'm bipolar. On one level or another, I'm pretty sure of it. One, I'm on anti-depressants and they weren't REALLY working until my doctor added abilify. You know the commercial? But I also realize that I have moments of mania and, afterwards, moments of depression. Not as intense as it used to be but I'm pretty sure that is due to the different medications. Crazy, right??

I'll have to bring that up to my doctor.

But, this entire week has been one giant manic episode, if I ever saw one. I'm starting to gain sensibility again, which is good...but DAMN I was freakishly obsessed! Every day, I was checking out where to find a dog for my grandma. Seriously. I was checking craigslist and shelters everywhere. I would drive out to shelters around the area, just looking for a little dog for my grandma. It became quite an obsession. I was pretty crazy about.

Well, now I've come down a bit. I don't really care about it anymore. In fact, I'm not even that interested. Instead, I was really depressed for a while because I couldn't find the exact one for her. Sad, I know.

But I also learned today that she's not really ready for one anyway..... my bad.

I'm coming down now and I'm really glad because I was pretty obsessed for awhile. I was so obsessed with getting her a puppy that I went shopping to take my mind off of it. It really didn't do much for me. I didn't care for the shopping really. But whatever.

NOW I'm back on obsessing about school. YAY! My work my work! I'll actually start working again!

hehehehe....maybe.

Speaking of pets, Alice is taking a trip to Modesto this week. Not exactly a vacation destination, but whatever. She's going to enjoy some time in the first grade classroom.

Good for Alice!

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I'm back from LALA Land!

I have a new favorite movie!!! hahahahaha! The Tenth Kingdom. This picture here be my favorite character: the wolf guy. Watch it and you'll understand. He's pretty hilarious.

So...where have I been these last couple days, hmm? Well, let me tell you...A.C.T.F.!!

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Okay, so not everyone knows what this is. For those who don't know, it is a college theatre festival full of workshops and plays. It's a week long and colleges from the region travel far to come to a selected city in the region. This year, the festival took place at Cal State Fullerton. It was pretty fun. I'd never been there before so, I must say, it was QUITE an experience. Perhaps the only thing that really got me down was the fact that I was surrounded by actors who did nothing but act. You know the type. Instead of just being themselves, they were always acting...pretending...making a big deal and showing off to make themselves noticeable. NOW...not EVERYONE was like this...but all it takes is a few to make the workshop become ridiculous. Really now people... remember who you are.

NOW I'm back and I'm totally ready to look at theatre with a whole new perspective. I'm going to experience more and go to more auditions...make myself a portfolio of different monologues and work on them so that I'm more prepared. In reality, I never took theatre as seriously. Well, I accepted it as part of my life, but I never really understood it before. For example, I'm constantly working on my writing. Someone once told me that if I want to be a writer I must constantly both read and write. SO I do. What I didn't realize was that to be an actor I must work on that too. While I keep a portfolio of writings to show people, I forgot to keep up both my acting resume AND my monologues that I know well and keep ready for different auditions.

HAHAHA!!! It all makes sense now. I have to work on everything in theatre the same way that I work on my communications things. Really, now...I didn't even think about this.

NOW I know.

All I can say, though, is that I'm glad to be back because I was starting to miss my normal life. I love acting and theatre but it really is something that I can't do ALL of my life. I enjoy it and it keeps me sane but I also have to have my classes and my life.